For those who gave up on love easily...

As cliche as it may sound, heartaches are there to make you stronger, wiser, and for you to be a better person.  The first few days after a break-up is always the hardest.  You never know where to start or how to go from there.  Every object, word, phrase, sound, that you see, hear, or feel might be a constant reminder of him.  and it hurts because it cuts down to the deepest part of your being.  Then there's the occasional crying bouts where you feel even worse after pouring it all out.  You go through a defense mechanism thinking that you're ok but you're really not because the truth is..you still love him after all.  You become insecure and you ask yourself, "is something wrong with me?" There really is no sure way or path when getting into a relationship.  You'll never really know what happens in the end if you don't start it at all.  So, you take the risk with innocence and wonder, putting all your defenses down, giving everything you've got because you think every feeling must be worth it.  Yet, you're now at a loss after the separation.  Like a traveler lost in a foreign land, you don't know how or where to go.  It's a good thing though that there are kind strangers or friends that you meet along the way.  They offer insights and knowledge on how you can start turning your life around again into a beautiful memory worth remembering.  Life is not just about pain and sorrow.  It's more about learning as well as creating colorful pictures of experiences good or bad.  You may not be feeling well now but you will later on.  Pain is something that you're bound to experience once in a while and before you know it, you've already moved on with your life and that dreaded memory of the boy you once loved will be just a faded picture from the past.  It will be just something that you can laugh about.  You have loved and you've been loved in return.  Nothing can ever replace that exchange of pristine sentiments.  He may be gone from your life but it doesn't stop there.  Others are still bound to come. They say that the circle of love is a vicious cycle because it may seem that you're always making the same mistakes again.  I say it's a magnificient circle to be able to extend your being to another.  Love is and always will be the greatest irony of all.  Even if you got hurt, felt pain or anger, admittedly, you also felt intense joy and happiness.  That's what makes it something unique and special.  Say farewell and good riddance but thank him for making you a better person.  You lost him but you gained more from seeing what life still has to offer.  Maybe you'll see him again or may be not, maybe he's still in your life but it doesn't really matter now.  Just keep on living, loving and learning because that's what this is all about.

jenna
2pm
2004