You never find yourself until you face the truth. - Pearl Bailey
Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.
-George Bernard Shaw
I feel that I have lost myself - any centre as it were, has shifted from its natural interests, and that it will take me a long time finding myself again. - Yeats
"Happiness is the experience of loving life. Being happy is being in love with that momentary experience. And love is looking at someone or even something and seeing the absolute best in him/her or it. Love is happiness with what you see. So love and happiness really are the same thing... just expressed differently."
--Robert McPhillips
On any given day, ask me anything about me and I will be able to say something. I have always took it upon myself to get to know me pretty well so much so that I know my dreams, my strengths, and my weaknesses like the back of my hand. And yet, more often than not, things change and people adapt to that change. The future is but a gray area. One can only dream or see a glimpse of it.
Someone once told me that in order to see your future, you must look at your present and the key to your present state is looking at your past. Sounds pretty simple but its actually a hard task at hand.
I know that I have changed a lot and have been transformed by the people around me. Now that an uncertain future lies before my eyes, I realized that I am lost. The only thing I'm certain is my will to survive in the midst of chaos.
Help me survive...
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Never Quitting Life
It's tempting to wish for a perfect parent or a perfect boss. But, sometimes, the best we can do is to hang in there and not to quit... to play the hand we've been dealt with and accesorize the outfit we've got. ~ Sex and the City
When things don't go the way you want it to be, hope is instantly lost but is regained again once you've decided to take a step further and do something about it. Sounds pretty easy? Not.
It takes a lot of courage for a kid to stand up and not cry when he or she gets embarassed in front of friends or classmates. It takes a lot of gut for a guy who have been constantly dumped by the same girl to say hi to her again the next day like nothing happened. It takes enormous willpower for an employee to say his ideas when all the big bosses are there. Men and women take great pains in overcoming obstacles in the personal lives. Whether it be issues with family, friends, work, lovelife, social life, and others.
Each of us have different ways in coping with what life is currently offering us and in every little detail of one's life are choices. You may take it upon yourself to do something about a problem or you can just let it pass and hope that someone will rescue you from it. One thing leads to another with the choices that we make.
Sometimes, being alive is tiring. Sometimes all you want to do is dissapear even for just a minute, to feel nothing, to see nothing, to forget... but that's wishful thinking.Truth is, reality bites and when it does, it leaves a mark right at the back of your head and it reminds you to keep going...to hang in there because when you give up on yourself, you stop living.
I refuse to stop living. I am tired, I am weak but I will keep going....
When things don't go the way you want it to be, hope is instantly lost but is regained again once you've decided to take a step further and do something about it. Sounds pretty easy? Not.
It takes a lot of courage for a kid to stand up and not cry when he or she gets embarassed in front of friends or classmates. It takes a lot of gut for a guy who have been constantly dumped by the same girl to say hi to her again the next day like nothing happened. It takes enormous willpower for an employee to say his ideas when all the big bosses are there. Men and women take great pains in overcoming obstacles in the personal lives. Whether it be issues with family, friends, work, lovelife, social life, and others.
Each of us have different ways in coping with what life is currently offering us and in every little detail of one's life are choices. You may take it upon yourself to do something about a problem or you can just let it pass and hope that someone will rescue you from it. One thing leads to another with the choices that we make.
Sometimes, being alive is tiring. Sometimes all you want to do is dissapear even for just a minute, to feel nothing, to see nothing, to forget... but that's wishful thinking.Truth is, reality bites and when it does, it leaves a mark right at the back of your head and it reminds you to keep going...to hang in there because when you give up on yourself, you stop living.
I refuse to stop living. I am tired, I am weak but I will keep going....
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
It's a Family Thing
Call it a clan, call it a network, call it a tribe, call it a family:
Whatever you call it, whoever you are, you need one.--Jane Howard
Family life is full of major and minor crises -- the ups and downs of health, success and failure in career, marriage, and divorce -- and all kinds of characters. It is tied to places and events and histories. With all of these felt details, life etches itself into memory and personality. It's difficult to imagine anything more nourishing to the soul.--Thomas Moore
People are lucky because there's this thing called family. Then again maybe some people are luckier because they choose not to have anything to do with their families. I think not and yet either way...a person is only lucky because he chooses to be. It has been proven that no matter what you do, you will still go back to your family.
Being the eldest, I have particularly seen my own family at its best and worst. It's a love and hate relationship for me but at the end of the day, I choose to love. Thinking about having my own family is scary and exciting at the same time. It's a constant sifting of which values to uphold, which traditions to remember, or what things must be thrown out. But how does one adjust to a new family given marriage for example? I know for a fact that when my mom married my dad, she became a new woman by adapting to the ways of my dad's family (which is not bad at all). Is that going to happen to me once I change my surname? I don't know. Maybe not or maybe yes but most probably the important thing to worry about is the family that I'm going to build.
Today, it's harder to marry at a young age since it's tough to raise a family. Some might marry but won't have any kids until after a few years or so. Our helper at home has 6 kids and she barely even earns minimum wage and yet she seems happy with her life. A friend of mine has been married for 5 years, is living a comfortable life but still has no child and has been wanting one. The fact that I'm even writing about this means I'm thinking already of having one but only when the right time comes.
Perfect timing to have one would probably be when I can sleep at night not having to worry about what my child or children will eat the next day, or whether we can send our kid to school or not, or better yet, whether I can give him/her the best things that life has to offer---and I mean not just material things but emotional, intellectual, and physical support.
And though it's a bit scary to jump into the water, when I feel right about it, I'm gonna go ahead and dive. I guess right now the greater goal is to earn enough money because it sure is hella expensive to raise a family. Believe me, I know...my dad has gone bald because of it!
Whatever you call it, whoever you are, you need one.--Jane Howard
Family life is full of major and minor crises -- the ups and downs of health, success and failure in career, marriage, and divorce -- and all kinds of characters. It is tied to places and events and histories. With all of these felt details, life etches itself into memory and personality. It's difficult to imagine anything more nourishing to the soul.--Thomas Moore
People are lucky because there's this thing called family. Then again maybe some people are luckier because they choose not to have anything to do with their families. I think not and yet either way...a person is only lucky because he chooses to be. It has been proven that no matter what you do, you will still go back to your family.
Being the eldest, I have particularly seen my own family at its best and worst. It's a love and hate relationship for me but at the end of the day, I choose to love. Thinking about having my own family is scary and exciting at the same time. It's a constant sifting of which values to uphold, which traditions to remember, or what things must be thrown out. But how does one adjust to a new family given marriage for example? I know for a fact that when my mom married my dad, she became a new woman by adapting to the ways of my dad's family (which is not bad at all). Is that going to happen to me once I change my surname? I don't know. Maybe not or maybe yes but most probably the important thing to worry about is the family that I'm going to build.
Today, it's harder to marry at a young age since it's tough to raise a family. Some might marry but won't have any kids until after a few years or so. Our helper at home has 6 kids and she barely even earns minimum wage and yet she seems happy with her life. A friend of mine has been married for 5 years, is living a comfortable life but still has no child and has been wanting one. The fact that I'm even writing about this means I'm thinking already of having one but only when the right time comes.
Perfect timing to have one would probably be when I can sleep at night not having to worry about what my child or children will eat the next day, or whether we can send our kid to school or not, or better yet, whether I can give him/her the best things that life has to offer---and I mean not just material things but emotional, intellectual, and physical support.
And though it's a bit scary to jump into the water, when I feel right about it, I'm gonna go ahead and dive. I guess right now the greater goal is to earn enough money because it sure is hella expensive to raise a family. Believe me, I know...my dad has gone bald because of it!
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